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September 3rd, 2007 (09:16 pm)

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As of late, my life has been pretty crazy. My love life has been a love triangle short of a soap opera. My work has been a dream. My family is, well, my family. I think I've come to find the perfect college for me (Florida Tech), but you can never be sure.

This being my senior year and all, I'd love for it to be a wonderous time, though the beginning has been rocky. I've lost the first person I've ever given my heart to. I've been overlooked for captain for something that I have given my life to for the past few years. For the first time in my life, I feel rather helpless. I'm waiting for someone to pinch me and say it was all a joke. I would love to say I'm beng optimistic and that everything will be okay in the end, but I've been optimistic all summer, and no good has come from it.

I still have to go back to school. Have to tell those who ask what happened. Have to go to practice and pretend that everything is okay. Pretend that I don't feel completely worthless. And on top of all of that, my foot has fallen asleep. Haha.

I've tried to move on. Trust me, I have. But it hasn't been working. And thus, I feel empty and incomplete. I have nothing else to say but that I love you.

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yeah. ugh. fuck it all. i want to go off to college and get away and just try and forget about it all. everything and everyone. that's a lie. i want him to love me again. and i want things to be the way they used to be. because things were all bright and sunshiny then.

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Posted by: Alexa (antlers)
Posted at: September 4th, 2007 03:47 am (UTC)

kali, i miss you. why don't we talk as much as we used to?

Posted by: Kali (x3_sharada)
Posted at: September 4th, 2007 10:14 am (UTC)

i miss you too alexa. we really need to hang out sometime soon. for the most part, my mondays, tuesdays, and wednesdays are pretty booked with dance, but i've got most thursdays and fridays free, so anytime that's good, just give me a call or i'll call you. :)

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